fading

From "accept your perfectly imperfect" to "your  perfectly imperfect is completely unacceptable."

Last night I dreamt of my brother who died
and I miss him

Men that I see remind me of Mykel Henrie
He's broken
Then the reserve shoot, I see deployed
and aunt Dee Dee
who died skydiving when I was in ninth grade.
Her reserve shoot too late.
Mykel Henrie, not enough time
Jason... His life too short

I feel sad
and unacceptable
why?
...the problem with "letting it burn out"
is that "it" is me