TBI- knowing vs understanding

Sad, and oh so tired. These games have made me oh so tired. 

I don't have the cognitive, mental and emotional stamina to fight this fight. It really wears me out. 

The thing is they know this. 

They know this and they are using it to their advantage. 

I don't know exactly what I have stumbled onto in all of this but things they know well about head injury/TBI and psychology they have tried to use against me. 

What they keep ignoring and not wanting to hear is that I have been fighting this battle for over 28 years now. I have been working to adjust, cope and overcome the tired, push crash, emotional and mental health related issues that -they know- are so common with head injury. I have been learning and adjusting to these problems for longer than they have all been in practice; longer than the Neuroscience Institute has even been in business. 

and a business, sadly, seems to be all that they are. 

There are so many things that they know about head injury/TBI but that they don't understand.

I understand what they know. I have lived it for so very long. 

...Reciprocity would be much better.

the beginning of the end

I feel sad and low. and oh so slow. not at all sure which way to go.
He's a narcissist say some
inappropriate say others
abuse for sure, of power and more
...and I have an obligation to report.
moral.
Logically and rationally, it's what I need to do
but I really don't want to.
no apology. no acknowledgement of mistakes. no explanation
a letter of explanation, no apology needed, just tell me your take, why my brain reacted that way...
but none.
Red flags, so many, Ignored
because he's so nice and certainly I am the aggressor. and "crazy. but not manic" they say.
It's not rational. their logic does not make sense.
-But I don't stand a chance and they know it -mental heath issues, and behavioral they've labeled. they are in control, ...fighting fire with fire,
but gaslighting manic will burn us all down.
...
I have to turn him in. report this to the state, and maybe beyond. All of them.
And it makes me so sad.
so so sad

You know someone is really good at something when they make it look easy. When they make the impossible look easy, that's how you know they have talent, skill and experience.