As I read and review what I was going through at that point in time when I was breaking and becoming more and more manic, I can't help but think, "what the hell was he thinking?" And, "how in the hell could he think and act like it was all normal? Like I was normal and fine" because I was not normal. I was weird. I was saying weird things and behaving in weird ways. I was not okay. But I sure as hell was fighting hard to be.
How the hell did I have people convinced that I was okay? Or did I? Why the hell weren't people more concerned than they were? ...and it kind of hurts. But I am not letting it... because
I was so freaking weird.
Damn, Pertab, what the hell were you thinking? And what the hell was wrong with you?
He had to have been pretty damn broken himself. Or bad. Or weird himself. Or did he genuinely get lost and caught up in me and the superpowers I possessed when I was manic?
...or is he diabolical?
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