devloping identity

Two posts today. Read the first posted first and this will make more sense. But I think this post needed to be split.

I am happy.
I am easy going.
I love to do things.
I love to play.
I love adventure.
I love people.
I am intelligent and rational.
I like having a family and home (usually)
I believe in humanity.
I am friendly, though I can be shy and reserved.
I am not super neat and tiddy.
Sometimes I say stupid things.
Sometimes I don't want to fight.
Sometimes maybe I hide when I should not.
Sometimes I avoid things.
I am a bit lazy.
And I am NOT crafty.

...and many other things.
that is me and I am ok with that.

But I am also hypersensitve and I have to watch that closely. My deep thinking can get me in trouble and I have to watch that. I can be over the top, angry, slap happy for no reason at inappropraite times, and ridiculous. Darkness can creep in. I can have some serious anxiety...
...and many more things.
But that is not me.
And when those things start becoming me, when it takes all I've got to keep myself in check. When I become too affacted by every song, picture, movie, book, dialogue, I am exposed to then I can know that I might be loosing myself in my chemistry.

I don't think everyone has had that opportunity to develop their identity. I don't think everyone has been able to feel "normal" and if you don't have that to go back to then how can you? If you have never had a rational thought in your life then is there hope?
I don't know.
I suppose my ideal would be that people with mental ailments might be able to at least identify who they want to be and then do what ever is necessary to get there. Comprimisses will likely be necessary and we are likely, in our less-then stable and rational states, to have an unrealistic picture of who we would like to be. But maybe there is at least some hope for some of us in treating the issues at hand.

It is easy to say and believe it is possible from this side of the glass anyway.
And yet that statement could at least give hope to those who are not yet on this side of the glass.