What me should I entertain? What me should I develop?
Currently I find myself all dressed up for church and I actually look pretty good. But having such a hard time making myself go.
Sometimes so much of it feels like superstition. Sometimes I seem to have an overactive imagination and lately I am feeling the need to break free of superstitions.
I'm not so sure that reflecting on the unknowns of supernatural settings is a good thing for me. I find myself trying to attach meaning to everything but logically trying to remember that is probably not accurate. So I decide it might be a good plot for a story and that maybe I should develop that idea. But somehow in the developing of the plot for what is sure to make a good novel or movie, or something, I find myself trying to attach meaning and symbolism that again connects me to some supernatural, spiritual, transcendental, or psychic phenomenon.
And here I am all dressed up not wanting to go.